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[Jun. 7th, 2009|05:48 pm] |
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Warning : Lengthy entry ahead.
Since all we're left with is a face to face confrontation which I'm definitely not willing to do, I shall just thrash things out here, whether you read and get it in, or not, it's none of my business anymore.
First thing first, I don't understand what have you been talking about me behind my back. None of yuan's fault and I don't think its time for you to start pointing fingers at anyone when you started all these nonsense. I believe that I treat every single friends equally and I give in my utmost to everyone of them, including you. I'm really appalled at things you say, that I ditched you once I reconciled with jer? When I didn't have him I came running towards you? Do I really sound this pathetic to you? You asked me out for dinner after reading that post, wanting to know what happened in precise. Was I the one who ran to you initially? You wanted to know andy and clique, didn't I call him immediately and arranged to have a meet up the approaching weekend? When you needed people to accompany you to exchange for a new phone, didnt I come from school straight? When we were going to andy's birthday you texted me saying you slept late, I came back from school instead of waking you up just to let you have a few more hours of sleep.
As a matter of fact, after things are harmonized between me, jer and kai, each time all of us meet up, did I not include you in? I always offered to ask you to come along and even when I couldn't make it I said it didnt matter and told you to have fun. I wasn't nice to you enough? What else do you need? Just because jer came to find me after work and we didn't ask you along, I deserve such treatment from you? I tried to appraise the importance of your friendship, sad to say, I don't see any. Yeah but of cos you're gonna say we all should know your temper and I did tell you before at this rate you're gonna lose your friends one by one. You don't even respect kai or M. Just because we all should know the way you talk? Oh my apologies, but this is the way I talk too.
And I obstinately believed in you that you will change. Stop focusing on yourself, the whole world doesn't stop for you or neither does it rotate just for you. Just because you " failed your exam " or you " quarrelled with your dad " or " fighting with people in club " gives you the damn right to vent your anger on anyone who happened to be so unlucky, talking to you? Oh and you said I wasnt there when you needed someone? You texted me telling me abt that incident which happened last year, did I laugh or despise you? I told you that you know I'll be there if you wanna talk. You appeared offline saying you failed by 20%, but of what? You think I know? Facebook quiz 20% (lol), FTT failed by 20%? Driving practical by 20%? SAY clearly if you want people to know! I cant read minds I cant predict who needs me at that point of time. Have it occured to you that I had problems of my own too?! Like I say, you focused way too much on yourself.
What do you mean that we're happy to see you landing up in this state? Do we look like those who builds our happiness on the expenses of someone else's misery? How does that sound, does it sounds just... Like you? Treating everyone as the object of ridicule before you'll stop. I told you before abt this, you take everything everyone for granted, your forte isnt it? Yeah we had a open bitch-fest about you and it just seems like you are just using friends like us to get what you wanna achieve. You feel insecure if we're out without you, you say sorry for the sake of saying till it has lost its value. Once it hits you that you're losing everyone of them, you text and apologise again for those cryptic/ senseless/hurting comments you've hurled at everyone. But, really, whats the point?
You want the truth? I find you super obsessively self centered. Everything is all about you. You want to be in the center of attention, you crave for attention we don't give. But little do you know things you do repulse every single of us away from you. Or maybe its just our side of friends. I don't know abt yuan but just because you know shes soft hearted, don't hit on this sensitive spot and also doesn't mean that she has to be at your beck and call.
I feel most indignant about the way you said you sincerely wanted me and jer to reconcile yet at taboo, you told me saying jer ditched you once kai arrived and went off to dance and leave all of you there. It made me pretty peeved at him for that short period and I even texted him asking him not to take all of you guys as fools and substitutes when kai is not there. But he told me the exact thing that took place after we reconciled and I kept mum about it. He wanted to confront you, I told him to forget it since things are already settled.
You probably never noticed all of these quiet exchange because I didnt want to hurt you or even start to accuse you. But you caught me dumbfounded when jer confronted you over the phone. " Tell me if yanhui is nice to you. If you say she isnt, we have nothing to say and I will just hang up now "
And your answer? Perfect. " Good so? Bad so? yanhui to me is like whatever now. "
Thank you so much. With this, I rest my case.
- Life doesnt always turns out to be your fantasy, thats why you need friendships which are REAL to get you through it all. - quoted sex & the city. Thanks to all of my friends who stayed throughout by my side, you guys are gems :D and to gf : wont blog here abt what happened regarding the club incident but im glad your friends believe in you (: i love you most.
I'm finally vindicated!! I deserve this justice man.
P.S : Did a tiny bird whisper to us that nobody actually even touched your wardrobe at all? Time for a reality check, make sure your lies wont get exposed. Afterall, nobody likes liars.. :) xoxo
P.P.S : I write this in a pretty composed mood, pretty ironic to yesterday, dont even know why did i tear. Why should I even bother? But I know I won't for now, like what kai said, why bother giving you those attention, you're so right in law! Peace. Good riddance! |
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